I was divorced two years ago,
and becoming a single mom was really, really
difficult in a lot of ways. I don't think people
realize how lonely it feels, juggling everything. You definitely feel different. In public, I think,
especially whether it's school events or just walking
around the grocery store or at church, you
feel different, and it's a very lonely feeling. You don't feel
like you're enough. You think, "I've failed my kids. I have failed my
parents, my family. Maybe I've even failed God." And it's just sort of a
dark space that you're in and you're walking through. And it kind of just
keeps going on and on. And you wonder, like,
"When is the light going to break through?" I remember a specific day. I was taking a friend to the
airport, and it was raining. And I was already feeling
really scared about my future and nervous about
what's to come. And I turned a corner, and
there was this beautiful rainbow in the sky. It was so vibrant, and
it was just so beautiful. As I looked at it, I remember
feeling just really calm and very peaceful and,
in those moments, sort of recognizing that peace. So I started to search out
the meaning of rainbows and found out that they
mean peace and prosperity. And it's kind of God's little
message to me in that moment, especially. So even to this day,
my son draws rainbows on all of his schoolwork. And every time I see
it, it reminds me that no matter how fearful
I might be of the future, I don't really know what
life is going to look like. Or when I do feel lonely, peace
comes and the rainbows come. And there have
been those moments when it's almost like, you
know, I'll say a little prayer in my mind or something. And the day just
gets a little easier, or I'll feel a little
more supported. It's just a feeling that I get. But I know that He's
there and He's helping me; He's working with me.
So this is my life. Is it ready yet? This is what single
parenting is. Not yet. Oh.
[INAUDIBLE] And never getting
a moment alone. Yeah, I will. Can you give me a kiss? Thank you.