I was a huge daddy's girl. I loved, loved my dad. He started to grow distant,
and then he was never around. I knew something was
wrong, and I was scared.
One night when I was
nine, my mom sat me down. She said, I know that you
know something's wrong. Your dad's addicted to pain
pills and he needs help. And I think in that moment,
I instantly grew up. He served 18 months in
a federal penitentiary. I was so angry. I didn't talk to him. I didn't spend time. I think I hugged him goodbye. And I was scared; I
was in that moment when I didn't know what
was going to happen. I think the best way to describe
it is when you're leaning back in a chair and you're
on the back two legs, and it's that split second when
you know you're going to fall and there's nothing
you can do about it. It's that uncertainty. And I think that's the
best way to describe it is that tipping
point when you know and you're just trying
to find footing. And that's what my life was
like for six or seven years. And in those moments,
I would turn to my mom. And she was great,
but it wasn't enough.
I had to turn to my Savior
and ask, "Please help me be OK for the next hour.
Please help me be OK today.
Father, help me forgive
because I don't know how. I don't know if I can."
And I learned to speak
to my Heavenly Father as if He were my friend.
The one thing that I know
is that my dad would be dead if he hadn't gone
to federal prison because he hit rock bottom
and decided to change.
And through Jesus Christ, my dad
was able to physically change. He came back to me. There's not just a
point in time when we were like, oh,
everything's good now. It took us time. He had to work to
gain our trust back. And we had to work to forgive. Forgiveness is hard. And I want people to know
that just because you haven't forgiven them yet and just
because you don't feel whole yet, you will.
You just have to hold on.
And it hurts.
And you'll mess
up--you'll get angry. But if you'll hold on,
things will be OK again. Jesus Christ is real.
And I know that
through Him, things can be OK again and
better than you ever imagined they could be. [MUSIC PLAYING]