What Will I Do?

Looking for Guidance

This past February my sweet husband of two years explained that he no longer has a testimony and is discontinuing his membership in the Church. With this change in faith, various lifestyle choices shifted as well. I was absolutely devastated, with no idea where my life was headed. I have never pleaded so hard to receive guidance as I did during the April 2018 general conference. I sat listening to each talk, and as President Russell M. Nelson began his address on personal revelation, I found the direction I was seeking.

President Nelson outlines how to receive answers to the heart’s most pressing questions. He invites us to “pray in the name of Jesus Christ about your concerns, your fears, your weaknesses—yes, the very longings of your heart. And then listen! Write the thoughts that come to your mind.” I cried during the entire talk and took copious notes. President Nelson might as well have included my name in his talk when he asked, “Does God really want to speak to you? Yes!” (“Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives,” Ensign, May 2018, 95).

While I can’t say I know what God has in store for me quite yet, I learned two important lessons this conference. First, there is no doubt in my mind that President Nelson is a prophet. Second, God knows us individually, and He will reveal His will to us in His time. President Thomas S. Monson (1927–2018) once said, “I never cease to be amazed by how the Lord can motivate and direct the length and breadth of His kingdom and yet have time to provide inspiration concerning one individual” (“Consider the Blessings,” Ensign, Nov. 2012, 89). I was the individual inspired that day with the assurance that His hand is guiding me.

—Name withheld

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