Summer vacation had always been a wonderful time for me. It seemed that I had a chance to feel the Spirit more strongly when I had more time and didn’t feel the pressure of school.
But this summer was different. A strange emptiness filled me, and I felt confused. I had always heard that Heavenly Father communicates to his children through the scriptures. So I sat on my bed with the Book of Mormon in my hands and began to pray. “Dear Father in Heaven. I thought I was doing everything right. I make good choices and strive for the Holy Ghost to find me worthy of constant companionship, yet this emptiness fills me. Father, let me know what I have done wrong.”
Then I opened my scriptures to Alma 37. The answer to my prayers began in verse 39. It was speaking of the Liahona. “And behold, it was prepared to show unto our fathers the course which they should travel in the wilderness. … Nevertheless, because those miracles were worked by small means it did show unto them marvelous works. They were slothful, and forgot to exercise their faith and diligence and then those marvelous works ceased, and they did not progress in their journey” (Alma 37:39, 41).
It was as though a voice had spoken to me. Heavenly Father was not angry with me. I think he knew the desires of my heart were good and pure. But it was obvious that I had become a little slothful in my efforts to maintain my spirituality and to keep my testimony strong and growing. This was not helping me “progress in [my] journey.”
Since my study of the scriptures had not been very focused, I decided to start there. After all, it is our modern-day Liahona. How grateful I am for a Father in Heaven who cares for me so much that he would speak to me through the scriptures.